Okay. Real talk. The 1L curve SUCKS. And I have never felt more dumb in my entire life.
Everyone says it. But it’s true. It is so insanely difficult to go from doing so well, staying ahead of the curve, then boom, one grade ruins everything.
And for me, that grade was Con Law. Unfortunately, Con Law was the last grade I had to get back, too. I was feeling so good, had everything else back, was happy, but then.
But.
Then.
And I know this is a normal thing, I know I am not the only one feeling this way, I know I am not special. I know I worked my ass off, I know I tried so hard, I know I prepared. It just sucks feeling like everything could slip through your fingers because you did poorly compared to your peers in one single subject (especially considering our own Supreme Court isn’t following the precedents they’ve set so like ?????? I digress).
I have had over two weeks to sit on this feeling since receiving my grade(s). To process. To remind myself that one grade will not define my entire future, even if it feels like it will in the moment. Luckily, I have an amazing mentor (shout out the LCLD!) who has helped keep me grounded through the crash outs, the humblings, the tunnel vision of 1L GPA. Luckily, I have an amazing support system outside of law school who helps remind me there is an entire world out there besides the four walls of the law building. Luckily, I have amazing leadership to look up to in the firm I am interning with this summer, who are dedicated to ensuring I can learn as much as possible while there.
But I know not everyone has that. So, on the off chance someone is reading this who is disappointed in what came back this last semester. Just know truly, it will be okay, and things will work out (they literally HAVE to), and in ten years you probably won’t even remember your 1L GPA. So cheers to looking forward, moving on, and working harder.
Song of the day: American Cars, Noah Kahan
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